I know the feeling of being in an environment that doesn’t really resonate, doing things that don’t fulfill you and not really embodying the version of yourself you want to be.

Feeling unclear about who you are and what you really want. It feels like you are only showing a very small part of yourself, while at the same time you feel there is so much more to you. However, the fear of looking inwards is huge.

Already in school, I asked myself why I was learning what I was learning. Many of my classmates had clear goals in mind, such as studying medicine or law. In contrast, I had no idea and didn’t know what goal I should pursue. After graduating from high school, I felt pretty lost. I tried out lots of things only to realize that they didn’t resonate. I applied for jobs that I didn’t really have any motivation for and, oh wonder, got rejected by all of them.

After many closed doors, I finally decided to do what I was most afraid of: to go abroad alone. That was my first step towards freedom.

Since then, I made it a priority to overcome my fears – be it speaking English, speaking in front of a camera, speaking in front of a group, writing or doing something alone. Yoga and meditation have helped me to reconnect with myself and my intuition. I spent a lot of time with myself and delved inward, asking myself what I truly wanted and who I wanted to be. (By the way, this is still something I do.) Step by step, it became easier for me to make decisions aligned with my heart.